PTSD: Extinguished triggers are not dead, dormant maybe



We have tendencies, sensitivities, and habits that are directly connected to our PTSD. For many decades, my PTSD lay dormant and hidden, these tendencies still remained active, influential.

I integrated much of my childhood abuse over an extended period. My triggers lost power and I could go out publicly with an ease never before experienced.

My triggers were connected to things that were related to my trauma, mundane, they happened in public and were accompanied by my fight or flight mechanism not firing, exploding.

The mind can take a saltine cracker, connect it with violent trauma from our past, and make saltine crackers something we avoid out of intense fear.

Our mind could intensely fire our fight or flight mechanism everytime we came into contact with a cracker. We would avoid at all costs if it gets bad enough.

Think someone without PTSD would believe that?

Some of healing is understanding how our mind works, PTSD is inside us not out there, in our mind, heart and body.

Some of my old triggers have regained power, impacting my behavior and quality of life.

How can something I extinguished thoroughly come back to life?

PTSD never leaves us completely, that is my experience.

Think what this looks and sounds like to someone who has never experienced serious PTSD symptoms.

Meditating, focusing on my breath, has let me watch my mind from a distance.

If our mind is a complete stranger we will suffer.



4 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Anonymous on May 25, 2021 at 3:09 pm

    I like Kaitlin Foster’s comment. I am finding the older I get the more words are empty, mindless chatter. Your post is resonating today.

  2. I did not have a defined idea when I started

    Understanding our mind , how it functions, some of its mechanism especially our defense mechanism and adrenal stress response

    I think the absurd like a saltine cracker being a trigger is possible

    Many think triggers are only visual. Not true

    I knew an EMT that the smell of diesel fuel ignited her ptsd

    Many body triggers

  3. Posted by rudid96 on May 26, 2021 at 2:54 pm

    It’s sad but very true, PTSD & C-PTSD are never completely erased. In the past, the words “healing” conjured a picture of living life smoothly, without spiraling into the F/F/F/F responses. I’ve learned here and elsewhere that healing is using learned tools daily. Mindful Marty, one of the greatest gifts this blog has given me has been to teach me about the purpose and power of the Breath. Meditation for me is clunky. However, recently, someone told me meditation needn’t be limited to sitting still. One can also meditate while hiking in the woods or on long, peaceful walks. What do you think?

  4. Thanks for input

    I can not recommend spending 30 minutes a day in this zoom kundalini yoga class

    It is much easier than other forms of meditation

    Kundalini believes in Shakti

    Life force inside us

    I keep trying to get you my email address

    And yes healing if that is possible is never going to be smooth sailing for any of us

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