.
.
A documentary about male toxic masculinity.
http://therepresentationproject.org/film/the-mask-you-live-in-film/
This is eye opening for me. What I have always taken for granted, what I believed a man was supposed to be, has been the cause of many, many issues.
Factor in my father’s special sauce, I needed to be twice as good as all other male ego’s on a field of competition.
To be that dominate Ego, all social interaction at school had to be consistent.
My mask was contrary to my personality. I just wanted to fit in, to have friends, to be secure and accepted.
Baseball was a hybrid battle for my dad with tactics and psychological warfare.
No crying in baseball, you never show weakness, always play hurt, and never back down. You win and dominate.
With a healthy male ego, my college betrayal would not be about me or my masculinity.
Wow, that seems ground breaking.
I wanted to share this as I dig deeper into this subject.
.
.
PTSD - A Way Out.com 