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My spiritual teacher says, my “Ego” did his job extremely well and helped me survive childhood. Wow.
Thank him and soothe him, do not battle and interrogate him.
She talks about our divine masculine and feminine sides.
Funny, she says my feminine side is active, look at my empathy not repeating what my dad did to me. Interesting concept.
Had to digest those words for a while.
Maybe having the abuse I endured through childhood, gave me a better life than being in another environment. Her words bring ideas I have never imagined.
I realize all my PTSD symptoms are directly related to my “Ego”.
If I meditate, focus intently, my PTSD goes away, along with my “Ego” for a while.
My era is filled with toxic masculinity, a denial of emotions being thought of as strength.
That adds up to a flawed “Ego”, an intolerant, angry, anxious guy.
I need to filter my “Ego” through my heart. Cleanse it of the damage it accumulated navigating through childhood trauma.
Rarely, if at all, has therapy addressed my heart.
When the heart is in observer role, we are at a deeper, spiritual level.
This all resonates with me.
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Posted by TheFlowIntoWords on May 12, 2021 at 6:44 pm
I relate to what you share here. Spirituality does seem to bring something powerful to the table of healing that traditional counseling (in my experience) doesn’t. I find both counseling and spirituality incredibly helpful in their own unique ways. 🌷
Posted by Marty on May 12, 2021 at 6:48 pm
I avree