I have read that trauma (PTSD, C-PTSD) is an unfinished play

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I have read that trauma (PTSD, C-PTSD) is an unfinished play, it has a beginning and a middle but lacks an ending, closure.

Maybe this is why some horrific events never die inside us.

Cognitively we search to understand why, sometimes how, and always look to escape the unescapable, our past.

Similar to our childhoods, escape was impossible, mine was a prison without bars.

From my earliest childhood I have never felt calm, safe or worthy.

I was very accomplished and physically powerful, all that was a facade.

In my mind, I thought certain accomplishments could bring me joy, wellbeing.

Chasing anything external will not lesson PTSD’s impact.

The demon lives inside us, no one else has access.

Others can help but our path to improve is inward, and intuitive.

I have helped a few improve from PTSD, my involvement was technique, experience, tools, direction and enthusiasm, they did the work on their own.

In times like this, when nothing seems to work, when the mind churns up the thought, this is hopeless, we need to keep our activity and determination filled with energy and action.

I have felt hopeless, helpless many times on my journey, this is the time we find out if we do have courage.

As long as we do not quit in our lowest moments, do not give up, we will survive.

The world will never see what trauma has done to our minds.

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5 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by rudid96 on April 24, 2021 at 4:44 pm

    I wonder if others find the see-saw quality of C-PTSD as confusing. One can be dragged into the depths of a trigger and feel as if holding on is near impossible. Then, despondency, no hope. At other times, with fewer triggers, one almost believes that the weather has finally turned. Then unexpectedly, back to the trauma. It feels like walking on eggshells in one’s own lifestory. UGH!

  2. The road less travelled

  3. Wow really needed this today… absolutely love this metaphor. And it’s so true how the demon lives inside us, and all we can do is the work to befriend that demon since it’ll always be a part of us. Sigh it’s so tough… thank you for sharing this 🙂

  4. We have to be aware of what we are trying to heal

  5. The see- saw quality

    My image is a roller coaster

    Same inference

    My lows are much deeper than my highs

    My highs are guarded

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