Was you birthright peace, contentment and joy?

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This morning in the meditation group, it was said our birth right was peace and contentment, joy.

Wow, it that really true, then what happened to those of us who were abused.

I love hearing others talk about how things should be, it gives me insight into my childhood, why I am like I am.

My birth right was violent abuse, criticism and fear.

My fathers goal was to never let me feel comfortable or content, he wanted to produce the ultimate athlete.

Wonder where forced feeding falls in the contentment scale.

PTSD is the farthest thing from contentment my being has experienced.

Contentment does not mix with abuse and trauma, the last thing we experience is contentment.

I have to scour my memory to find contentment, I do not remember a time.

These sentiments, feelings or emotions others describe, I have no clue what they are.

How about you?

Was you birthright peace, contentment and joy?

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2 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Brian (SearchingForLostSoul) on March 30, 2021 at 8:08 pm

    I can’t even imagine the pain that caused you. My tormentors only had me a few months, and my bad ass mom set a couple of them straight when she found out. Still messed me up but my family was there. I know it’s not much but your in my prayers.

  2. Thanks man

    No it just lets me see what normal
    Or without trauma is like

    It is a crazy life lately

    My moods jump so quickly now

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