PTSD – A Way Out.com A mindful way to heal

The GRATITUDE JAR || Josie Robinson

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Been observing my PTSD, trying to be detached, using my ability to focus on my breath, to take a step back.

We need to carve out a space between these trauma emotions and our core (soul, heart).

High emotional danger can overtake us.

Now, I am working on forgiving myself for assuming the blame for others abuse and betrayal.

Guilt was a permanent present my narcissistic dad shared with me over a childhood.

It hides in my subconscious, stealthy, influencing self image.

Forgiving myself for not being brave, not reacting with courage and especially for always feeling unworthy.

I forgive myself for not thinking I had a right to be alive.

My memory has more holes than a slice of Swiss cheese, I have no idea how all this happened in one life.

All we control is our effort and attitude.

I get up each day and do my best.

Will our trauma travel with us into the afterlife?

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