https://www.atrapamente.com/en/guides/post/understand-PTSD/
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Trauma is stored in fragmented, biased snippets during a perceived lethal threat..
Talking to it, reasoning with it or trying to influence it cognitively (consciously) is impossible.
Intrusive thoughts and PTSD have their own engine, their own leadership, their own schedule.
PTSD triggers and plays when it wants.
We do not control anything but our reaction.
We can resist and let thoughts go, but if you have experienced severe PTSD you know the storyline never stops sometimes.
Normal people think with their normal rational minds how easy it is to heal. Just stop thinking about it.
How nice, how clueless, how damaging.
PTSD is irrational and gets worse with their idea of control.
I been judged, laughed at and humiliated because of my PTSD.
Navigating regular life and people without PTSD is an issue that never goes away.
We do not fit in, we have periods where we are much different, much more guarded, much more concerned about our safety.
Even people who are friends, who have seen you suffer will tell you to get over it after a while.
It wears them out watching us suffer, then they get frustrated and lash out.
It just happened to me again. I cut contact and isolate, it hurts.
Trust is already hard, this makes it worse.
Normal people have no idea what it is like to hide away as an adult in your room for days, emotionally destroyed from the monster hiding inside our head.
Our minds play terror events at a rapid pace, cortisol and adrenaline flow, numbing drugs and coagulants are secreted for battle.
It is an invisible war, inside an invisible prison (PTSD).
How could we as infants escape our life sentence?
Instead of criticizing PTSD people, they should give ultimate gratitude they did not have to live our childhoods.
Peer pressure causes us to retreat, we start losing trust in people who can not understand us.
Every symptom and consequence of Childhood abuse has driven me towards isolation.
How about you?
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