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I studied and studied, then isolated my trigger experiences.
My solar plexus would be violently jolted, numbing, then freezing me. Breathing became difficult, unknown fear paralyzed me.
So I ran, avoided, denied and tried to think my way out.
I feared that next explosion.
This scenario repeated itself for years.
Then I realized after being paralyzed with cortisol and adrenaline, ten minutes later everything calmed.
I was fine, just the same, ten minutes later.
So, if no real harm ever happened, why did I fear the next explosion.
That’s part of the irrational nature of PTSD.
We can not see its weaknesses.
There were no real consequences. Nothing permanent.
For me, I described it as a bluff.
It is a bully, it threatens with damage and has the key to our fight or flight mechanism, but it has no teeth.
Follow your next trigger exploding, feel all of it.
Feel its strength without resisting, then follow it as it fades in short time.
I realized my fight or flight had fired over and over without damaging me.
Be a detective.
Follow a trigger exploding all the way to feeling calm again.
Observe, not judge it.
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