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I have experienced trauma throughout my life.
I have also experienced never giving up every time trauma arrived.
I do not have to achieve anything to never give up, ever.
Who am I?
I do not control the trauma, I do control not giving up.
Who are you?
Our first responsibility is to never give up, never give in.
Simple.
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PTSD - A Way Out.com 
Posted by The Ascension Diet - Eating To Ascend on February 16, 2021 at 5:28 pm
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“Character cannot be summoned at the moment of crisis if it has been squandered by years of compromise and rationalization. The only testing ground for the heroic is the mundane. The only preparation for that one profound decision which can change a life, or even a nation, is those hundreds of half-conscious, self defining, seemingly insignificant decisions made in private. Habit is the daily battleground of character.” – Dan Coats
Posted by Marty on February 16, 2021 at 5:28 pm
We see ourselves distorted, less, because of our trauma
Much of this is buried unconscious for ever
I have felt like a failure
This is so distorted from my childhood
I believed the stain permanent
I believe I can find a different type of happiness even for me
I know my lows are deep and hopeless
But I fight out and keep going
That is who I really am
Posted by Marty on February 16, 2021 at 5:29 pm
Nice sentiment
We have to work fervently when things are calm to navigate the crisis that looms
Helping others, I do not know why so few take action in the face of suffering
Character or something inside
Some never give up and eventually find a way to exist
Posted by The Ascension Diet - Eating To Ascend on February 16, 2021 at 5:36 pm
Yes we do! And in our endeavors,uphold each other and guide others – even on our perceived frailty. We are more than conquerors. we are VICTORS. Not survivors only!
Adding the aspect of hardship as a test, it is a paradox we do not see it as so, but it is, albeit torturous and wrong that it occurs. We transcend these labels and limitations and inner voices of unworthiness through mindfulness and our own inner meaning, which is like a spark because it IS a spark of light ❤
Posted by Marty on February 16, 2021 at 5:41 pm
Having the ability to resist
To take action
To be able to change
Is all we can ask
Posted by Marty on February 16, 2021 at 6:07 pm
I have done the opposite of healing many times, avoided, ran, grasp the thoughts, actually tried to battle those trauma thoughts with my own thoughts.
Wow. Yeah that turned out a disaster.
Now this statement is so mindful, so true, so Zen
The only testing ground for the heroic is the mundane
Happiness is what your eyes see right now, what chore or job or thought running
It has to be because happiness only can be experienced in the moment
So mundane contains damn near all our happiness
We are not a movie character saving the world or conquering dangerous evil
We got to work, worry about bills, our looks, our security,
For the most part, life barely recognizes our existence and damn sure does not care.
So our influence is small, our world importance minuscule
How does an ego find happiness in the mundane shit
The ego never finds happiness
Happiness is contained in the journey..
The time we take to be caring and kind to others always contains happiness for me
Not long lasting but it is pure and I need to feel all I can.
Meditating at times all things dropped away as I sat in the calmest space I have ever experienced.
Time stopped, never felt so soothed and safe
Kind of drifting
So experience is available even for us
Expand your boundaries step out of your comfort zone
Risk is needed to heal
Posted by thegriefreality on February 18, 2021 at 2:25 pm
Totally agree x
Posted by The Ascension Diet - Eating To Ascend on February 23, 2021 at 4:20 am
Yes. In our daily habits and routines being calm and dispassionate.