PTSD: giving up is the worst decision

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15 years ago when my childhood abuse exploded, I had no idea how life was going to change.

You would of found a different person entirely, depending on the condition of my PTSD.

At my lowest, nervous system completely upside down, shaking uncontrollably at times, life was harsh.

PTSD had clearly won at my lowest. I got lost trying to think my way out. It made things worse, I felt helpless to impact it.

Depends on when we decide to give up. That will decide who wins.

This is when willpower is needed most.

Willpower allowed me to keep trying, keep taking action, even if nothing changed.

I had come to a place where improving may never happen.

Do I give up?

Your dad will win, came a voice from deep inside.

My fathers abuse developed my willpower as a kid.

Ironic that this willpower is what helped heal me.

Our paths and abuse are specific to us, but trauma is stored the same way.

I was shocked how humble then vulnerable I had to be to heal.

That healing of our inner world is both terrifying and soothing at times.

Even if I do not heal, my effort will not wane.

Our soul, core, true self needs to know that level of commitment.

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11 responses to this post.

  1. You might want to look into Tapping and/or Polyvagal therapy. They’ve both been really helpful for me. Keep up the good fight!

  2. I have fine tapping and poly a gal therapy

    Along with emdr, eft, Taft and two intuitives

    And a therapist for a decade

    I healed on my own Aline sitting meditating

    Funny our paths

  3. I’m going to need to spend more time with meditation. 💙 to you.

  4. It is well worth it

    Lots of different ways to meditate

  5. I took a happiness meditation class that I really liked. My favorite is moving meditation, helps me focus my ADD.

  6. I understand

    You can also do the Buddhist walking meditation

    With each exhale take a small focused step

  7. Thank you! I’ll give it a try.

  8. I have a
    Model to help focus and keep thoughts out

  9. Start slow work with three to five breath sets at first

    Bring awareness to each of the four parts

    Inhale
    Pause
    Exhale
    Pause

    The pauses are where we
    Let thought in

  10. I’ll take all the advice I can get! Thank you.

  11. This sounds like a great approach.

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