Emotions are so confusing, appearing out of memories without any current stimulus.




PTSD brings an emotion, sadness from four decades ago.

It feels real. Is it real?

Sure feels real but it is many decades past.

My mind must be broke.

The mind (PTSD) creates negative emotions from past memories.

Why do they have power in this current space?


Emotions can last as little as three seconds or with PTSD many decades.

Childhood Trauma is emblazoned forever inside our adolescent brains.

Seems that old sadness feels like fake sadness, or stale sadness, not fresh, not applicable to me, now.

I have eliminated some of these old trauma emotions, more to go for us, it seems.

If you give up easy, childhood PTSD will become Satan.



4 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by rudid96 on January 23, 2021 at 2:20 pm

    Here’s my question: What’s the difference between being stuck in an old sadness and trying to process an old sadness? The sadness is from the past but how does one address it if not look at it?

  2. Impossible for us to see or feel that difference

    The old sadness lives on its own stored as implicit memory

    The best I could do was not be afraid of PTSD

    That takes some of its power

    Ptsd needs fear to be its most powerful

    Fear was much more damaging for me

    When we process we are in observer mode

    Sadness is right over there

    Seeing it and being it, two worlds apart

    That is the difference in my mind

  3. Posted by rudid96 on January 23, 2021 at 3:49 pm

    Thank you for clarifying the difference. Working on this presently.

  4. I love you doing the work

    We work to be observer

    Thoughts and emotions are appendages out at the top of our finger

    Way away from our soul
    True self

    That crap out there can not touch our core

    Observe it like it was our ventriloquist dummy talking and judging

    If we can observe the sadness

    It has no fuel

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