The Craziness of PTSD: my biased opinion

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PTSD is irrational by definition, it defies common sense and reality.

Decades old events exert power over today, our life.

I realize the turmoil is internal, inside my mind and body. PTSD is stored in the right amygdala and in our bodies.

This stored trauma erroneously spots present danger. In fact, a good part of our focus is spotting imminent danger.

We are experts compared to normal people. Normal people use that time we waste spotting fake danger, to attach and enjoy life.

We start to live life in survival mode, like we are a prison guard surrounded by real danger everyday.

Perception is reality. Look at the election, some think it was stolen and others thought it was fair.

So old trauma thoughts without external power have great influence on our life today.

Does that not seem incredible! Our defense mechanism becomes our main tormentor.

It’s broke, it’s called PTSD!.

I know my main trigger holds no real danger, in fact it is a neutral event.

The damage had to be severe, it had to threaten our life or our “Ego” with imminent danger.

Violence and abuse are culprits. Abandonment and humiliation can threaten our “Ego” with annihilation.

Something inside preferred death to humiliation at times.

I know that was my “Ego” feeling that way, not my true self.

Humiliation is a judgment. The same event does not humiliate everyone.

I can accept feeling humiliated or let it go as an erroneous judgment.

My choice, your choice!

In observer mode, humiliation is rare. Judgment is rare in observer mode.

PTSD is rare in observer mode.

I meditate to increase my ability to live in observer mode.

This solves many issues without thought.

All we can do, is our best. No goals just all out effort and a great attitude brings some wellbeing.

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3 responses to this post.

  1. (Quoting) “Decades old events exert power over today, our life… I realize the turmoil is internal, inside my mind and body. PTSD is stored in the right amygdala and in our bodies… This stored trauma erroneously spots present danger. In fact, a good part of our focus is spotting imminent danger… We are experts compared to normal people. Normal people use that time we waste spotting fake danger, to attach and enjoy life… We start to live life in survival mode, like we are a prison guard surrounded by real danger everyday… Perception is reality.”

    How true this is. We are hardwired like Thoroughbred one never “gets the track out of”, with hijacked neural networks and metabolic functions adapted for trauma.

    The perception being reality is so true, and why narratives the populace is told to believe are constantly being crafted. I purposely state “crafted”, not ~created~ because this is sorcery at the highest levels down, the Wizard of Oz being a spot-on allegory.

    In my researching of the mutations made to wheat since Denisovian times, and the effects of chemicals called endocrine disruptors, I discovered how grain-based and carbohydrate foods have been weaponized to cause addiction and psychological predisposition to trauma from the cellular level, and reinforced through modern foods, a vicious cycle of genetically-induced CPTSD likelihood.

    When I gave up all grains and sugars and became vegan (not necessarily a raw vegan though), my PTSD scale in life PLUMMETTED. I am firmly convinced that foods have been weaponized since the previous earth reset to maintain a shell-shocked race of slaves with, basically, mass Stockholm Syndrome.

    Incidentally, Marty, you and the Breathing Track figure in the book. I’m not plugging it here, just letting you and readers know how grounded in truth your work and the freedom it brings to others is!

  2. I have read some opinions that covid deaths are so high in America because of diabetes and obesity among other things

    The purpose of food is wellbeing, health first

    What we eat in America causes issues for us

    Perception is reality

    Thanks for your wisdom

  3. It’s a fact! And also that the CV19 is a Sars virus. HCQ and ivermectin both help because they are not only antioxidant but anti-parasitic. WiFi, 5G and nanotechnology, heavy metals in the body make the pulomonary system ripe for this illness. Have you read The Invisible Rainbow? #recommend
    You are welcome, thank YOU, we are all in this together – need to get OUT of it alive and thriving!

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