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PTSD has a hidden component, Childhood trauma (C-PTSD) is much stealthier because our brain was still developing.
For abused kids, our biggest hidden component is an unworthy, a damaged “Ego”.
At 69, finally, my unworthy “Ego” has been exposed.
We have to explore our inner world, discovering what is hidden, then determine its influence in our life.
We create this person for identity “Ego”.
Heavy influencers are initial caregivers, peers, friends and enemies.
We create Marty at his core from my attachment or lack of it in childhood with my initial caregivers.
Next we evaluate how the world treats us, peers, friends and enemies, then we add how we see ourself into the mix.
Then we create our identity based on these life experiences.
Wow!
Look at how much of our self image, self worth is based on external factors.
We all need to work on changing self image, it’s kind of our “Ego”.
Our wellbeing depends on a healthy “Ego”.
Our “Ego”, the thinker is the one who has PTSD.
PTSD dies when I meditate, when I reach a focused no thought space.
Words, judgment, right or wrong, good or bad do not exist in this space.
Our right hemisphere, the expansive side of the Brain, does not know the past or future even exists.
PTSD lives, thrives in the past and future.
It’s called Dissociation, the lynchpin, the power of PTSD.
PTSD proliferates inside thought, the longer the duration the more fuel.
My healing is a moment to moment awareness or lack of it.
That building block determines my wellbeing.
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Posted by Marty on January 10, 2021 at 4:17 pm
It seems crazy to have my “Ego” partly formed from my first care givers abuse.
That seems very unhealthy to me now
Our “Ego” hides many traits from our consciousness
Fear buries our scariest traumas
Next how others treat us has nothing to do with our self worth
Wellbeing has good self worth and very healthy “Ego”
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