Do we get a Reward from Trauma?


A friend asked me about my old trauma, what reward, what benefit did I receive from having it in my daily life?

What a quandary? My being resisted the thought, enjoyment, hell all I felt was shame and suffering.

I guess Preventing a future betrayal or somehow calming my internal fears could be the answer. Has to be something stronger to endure suffering.

Is it subconscious?

Do we receive a benefit from old trauma?

If so, my search has commenced.

Many behaviors are influenced or indirectly dominated by subconscious traumatic memories.

My trust issues were driven by a repressed betrayal in college.

How do we fix what we can not see or feel consciously?



2 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by rudid96 on January 8, 2021 at 10:55 pm

    I’m hardly an expert on the business of healing but I’m wondering – do we really “fix” subconscious traumas? Or rather, do we learn to strengthen that part one might label SELF? From this perspective, SELF lovingly listen, reassure, honor those wounded time capsule parts? I envision the image of a person doing Tai Chi as a possible metaphor. Maybe all I say is impossible nonsense but it’s just a thought.

  2. I have a question about hard wiring done in an abusive childhood

    Can we ever reword and extinguish it

    I do not think so

    But I am exploring my inner world

    So many things in there influence decisions in life

    Surely we are to close and biased and anxious to know our own condition

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