PTSD – A Way Out.com A mindful way to heal

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This is my search to understand why I am like I am. It is so confusing inside my brain.

Is knowing why I am like I am, important, worthless, a bridge to healing or what?

I have no idea. I am to close to my own trauma.

Like a moth to the light, the draw to understand is my weakness, my blind spot.

For all my strengths, I am damaged beyond repair, but functional.

I can engage people and be an extrovert, talkative, friendly, congenial, then switch, hide for days without contact.

Who am I? I know my wellbeing needs fewer attachments compared to others.

Is that a success or a failure in my life?

I can argue both sides fervently.

Well, inside my head, surely not before an audience.

I hope my mind’s machinations can help others on this path.

Do I sound lost? If you have Complex PTSD, you know the answer.

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