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But here are two factors that are immediately relevant to trauma-sensitive mindfulness.
The first is fear.
Trauma can make us terrified of our internal experience.
Traumatic events persist inside survivors in the form of petrifying sensations and emotions.
Understandably, survivors become afraid to feel these again.
Van der Kolk described it this way: Traumatized people . . . do not feel safe inside—their own bodies have become booby-trapped.
As a result, it is not OK to feel what you feel and know what you know, because your body has become the container of dread and horror.
The enemy who started on the outside is transformed into an inner torment. (Emerson & Hopper, 2011, p. xix)
This is one of the most haunting, visceral costs of trauma: being forced to continually cope with gut-wrenching—often terrifying—sensations that live on inside.
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Posted by Just Bacon on June 24, 2020 at 3:36 pm
So powerful…
Posted by Marty on June 24, 2020 at 3:37 pm
It takes courage to heal, it is not easy and fear was ever present for me
Posted by rudid96 on June 25, 2020 at 2:21 pm
The enemy who started on the outside is transformed into an inner torment. (Emerson & Hopper, 2011, p. xix)….Truer words were never spoken. It’s exhausting. At times I find I’m resentful that I need to work hard at integrating Mindfulness Tools daily. I wish “carefree” was a natural state of being.
Posted by Marty on June 25, 2020 at 2:23 pm
Check out today’s post a 50 year old trauma hidden pops up for me
I am frustrated and shocked I buried something stronger that a whole childhood
Our work is never done
Posted by Marty on June 25, 2020 at 2:45 pm
Our lives will never resemble what a normal person faces.
The time I have spent healing had dominated my life for a decade. The most intense a five year period where I meditated five hour, read for at least two more then tried to apply awareness and letting go
We almost have to accept this is a way of life for us or we suffer.
This latest explosion for me, brought that resentment you mention
Carefree does not seem to be our experience.
I had a year period when I first healed that was euphoric. I mean when my fight or flight mechanism stopped firing and thoughts lessened, the absence of intense anxiety and suffering felt like euphoria