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My inner voice, no, not my true self, has some complaints.
He has been in charge of the complaint department for a while now.
My life should be easier, pleasant for all the meditating and healing I have worked so diligently to achieve.
The inner voice reminds me, in a five year timeframe, I meditated five hours, read books and applied my tools everyday.
Over 9,000 hours of silent meditation, life should be much easier, filled with more happiness.
His judgments always paint me, my life as lacking something.
I know better to grasp a judgment declaring my life should be easier or happier.
Who the hell am I to fabricate a storyline of loss around my healing.
My response: I have gratitude for having the willpower and courage to face my trauma fears.
I am thankful for the freedom and happiness I have earned.
There is no loss, I am dying the same day either way.
This way I have big challenges no loss though.
Who said life was ever going to be easy?
Any thoughts?
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Posted by michaeldepth on May 4, 2020 at 4:37 pm
Very well put. The inner voice is not an easy one to put to rest since it evolved from our earliest days. However, the daily work, the persistence, as much self love as we can muster moves us forward.
Posted by Marty on May 4, 2020 at 4:44 pm
Thanks for the comment,
I do not think we ever put the inner voice to rest, he is part of us.
We can be aware of his/her storyline and trade it for being present, absent of the noise.
Our goal is to live a good journey
A mindfulness practice helps us explore our inner world
It is where happiness dwells
Posted by rudid96 on May 12, 2020 at 2:05 pm
In this moment, right here, right now, this post helps to read. The current cycle has lots of judgments, lot’s of storylines. It helps to be reminded that staying in the moment is best for welcoming in the silence and then being present to nature. Setting a daily intention hasn’t worked for me,,,yet. However Staying in the moment with my breath has been the most I’m able to muster.
Posted by Marty on May 12, 2020 at 2:28 pm
That is improvement
Make sure your not judging to much.
Changes can be subtle at times.
When the storylines appear say this
In the moment my body is overflowing with approval.
Replace the storyline with this short sentence
It is a battle
Storyline against your mantra
Your ego versus your true self
You control who wins by your effort and attitude