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From “Buddha’s Brain”
“Consider renouncing specialness—including being important and admired.
Renunciation is the antithesis of clinging, and thus a radical path to happiness.
Say phrases like these in your mind, and notice what they feel like:
I give up being important. I renounce seeking approval.
Feel the peace in this surrender.
Love the person you are, much as you would care about any person dear to you.
But don’t love the self or any other mere mind-object.”
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My two cents: That mere mind-object (Ego) wants to be the most important person in the room.
He/She believes achievement, power, approval and status are connected to happiness.
It was most difficult for me to not overachieve, trying to make up for my unworthiness.
I was always trying to win worthiness through achievement.
My father wanted me to be a great professional baseball player, I was so attached to that goal, it became me.
Happiness or contentment never visited me.
All that energy, emotion and intent made suffering a constant companion.
I learned happiness only visits one time zone, the present moment.
Needing to achieve is always in the future.
Extra credit: https://ptsdawayout.com/2020/01/06/aloneness-is-not-for-those-who-want-to-be-special/
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