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Rudid96
“I don’t formally meditate. There, I’ve said it. Sometimes I think I’d like to but my actions speak otherwise. I listen to meditation Apps., read about it’s benefits and yet, when it comes to actually sitting for 20 minutes it doesn’t happen. The closest I get to meditation is while solo hiking or biking. “Why?” I’ve asked myself? Todays post left me with a vague awareness. I’m afraid. Afraid of the silence, the stillness. The constancy of my footsteps while hiking allows my mind to wander in safety. Doesn’t make sense.
What could be safer than sitting in silence for 20 minutes? Tell that to my body.”
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My two cents: Accept that trying to change our minds of always thinking, always judging, always in the past or future is awkward and difficult.
Awareness always happens first. Now you know the resistance and it is your Ego wanting to keep control.
Solo hiking and biking can be a meditative experience.
Instead of twenty minutes of meditation, try three to ten breaths.
Start small, no pressure. No right or wrong, good or bad, let judgment be.
My meditation practice deepened when I used my breathing track model. Know the breath has four parts, inhale, pause, exhale, pause.
Slow and quiet the mind, slow the breath, listen for the sounds of your inhales and exhales.
When emotions arrive let the story go, focus on the body sensations. Observe them with an easy curiosity.
Relax and enjoy the journey.
We could FaceTime and I can walk you through it.
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Posted by rudid96 on February 19, 2020 at 3:10 am
I’ve read the response to my challenges with meditating. I’d love to do a FaceTime to feel less uncomfortable. I’ve begun with the 3 breaths. The single breath is starting to become my secret elixir for stepping back from anxiety and other triggers. It’s been tremendous in helping me find my ground. Prior to this I’d easily break out in sweats & feel unwell. . Sent from my iPad
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Posted by Marty on February 19, 2020 at 4:00 am
Great
Enjoy exploring your focus on the breath
Meditating is learning to focus on a single breath then adding more breaths
It is simple
We make things way to complex
Just practice and let judging go