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When meditating, I exert no influence.
Whatever comes up is observed from a distance.
Anxious Thoughts, judgments, worry and doubt, body sensations, the breath, and our interior world are observed.
Observation takes no action, exerts no pressure on anything, passively leads us to acceptance.
Any strong emotions or judgments fade away without our participation.
Words become powerless, judgments obsolete and resistance useless.
Learning to detach from the “Egos” grasp frees us to heal and improve..
Accepting all of us is not easy, does not happen without daily practice.
We do not try to escape. We are detectives, we are on an undercover stake out of our inner world, our mind.
Next comes Surrender, we picture our heart as a butterfly net and then catch our fears gently with a child’s curiosity.
We are not doing anything to our fears, surrender exerts no pressure, no influence.
Thoughts, judgments and emotions fade quickly with practice.
We learn how to train our mind to stay present, empty of negative thought and emotion.
It was scary as hell at first, I perceived my triggers had power to harm me.
That was an erroneous conclusion.
I was afraid of my own fight or flight mechanism firing, an unfounded fear at best.
PTSD is a bluff, nothing happens after cortisol and adrenaline dissipate, returning us to a normal calm.
You have to practice to reap these benefits.
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PTSD - A Way Out.com 
Posted by sergism on January 28, 2020 at 2:28 pm
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Posted by Marty on January 28, 2020 at 4:03 pm
My challenge was to not react not try to control or defeat my thoughts
Learning to be ok with not trying to be special was a mountain to climb for me
I was a doer
An over achiever that I tried to achieve worthiness
That is impossible
Posted by Tazzie on January 30, 2020 at 7:08 am
I will often meditate when my mind wont shut down at night. I usually fall asleep and it is a sleep of such rest.
Posted by Marty on January 30, 2020 at 2:30 pm
Focus on the breath applies the brakes to our nervous system
Good for you