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A Healing journey has setbacks, presumed loss and days of confusion.
I judged myself harshly as failing, when a setback arrived. My erroneous judgment and subsequent search for why, powered PTSD.
Trying to make sense of, trying to find the rational reason to an irrational disorder (behavior) deepened my suffering.
I ended up agoraphobic following this ill-fated cognitive endeavor.
Healing needs no understanding of the irrational trauma feelings to heal.
Relief came when I learned to not think or cognitively engage trauma.
When I learned to let go, to live in the present moment, PTSD lost power.
I learned not to waste time and energy wondering why.
Why me, why can’t I solve this disorder, why does this not make rational sense, disappeared from my consciousness.
Leave guilt and judgment alone.
Surround yourself with kindness to overpower these negative thoughts and emotions.
We can be happy with this next breath.
Happiness does not happen in the future, so quit planning and start living.
Look for happiness today. It surrounds all of us.
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Posted by Mick8535 on April 17, 2019 at 6:12 pm
What really struck me in this post, is the idea of trying to engage something that’s irrational with the rational process of understanding. I’m realizing that it’s like banging your head against the wall and What really struck me in this post, is the idea of trying to engage something that’s irrational with the rational process of understanding. I’m realizing that it’s like banging your head against the wall and then wondering why it’s bleeding, right? Really powerful post. Thank you.
Posted by Marty on April 17, 2019 at 9:14 pm
We heal by letting go of thought and judgment not engaging it.
Thanks for the input