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PTSD is finite and has weaknesses. Glaring weaknesses that I found while sitting quietly observing trauma with intense focus.
PTSD has a fatal flaw, it can not play defense!
When PTSD is at its apex of power, our fight or flight mechanism firing violently, cortisol and adrenaline dumped into our bloodstream, it is also at its weakest!
I explored my trauma while meditating and found no damage after a trigger exploded. When my nervous system slowly calmed down, I was fine. Yes the chemicals were real, the feeling of real fear was intense but their was no damage to my being.
This built my confidence each time, finally having the courage to stay present with the body sensations, intently focused on my breath.
PTSD was a past tense bluff, a mirage of real danger. My father, my abuser was long deceased, so he was not going to appear and damage me.
Take away the chemicals being dumped along with all the physical changes preparing us for a lethal threat and all that exists are our stored thoughts and fears, nothing real.
We fear our own defense mechanism firing along with our trauma memory.
We need to react, avoid or dissociate when our fight or flight mechanism fires or it loses power.
Trust me, I have lived this and repeatedly stayed present as my C-PTSD erupted violently. Each time we stay present PTSD loses power.
Examine your triggers, follow them back to the source, memories of past terror, thoughts are all that exists, nothing more.
Takes practice while things are calm to be able to stay present when PTSD fires violently.
Start today with 15 minutes of mindfulness practice.
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Posted by spooky on December 21, 2018 at 7:57 am
I am learning this too. I realised that the fear sensations lie to you, make you think that there is no escape, that you can’t have what you need, and so on. But when they pass I’m still here and safe.
Posted by Marty on December 21, 2018 at 1:58 pm
PTSD has access to the switch which fires our fight or flight mechanism
The drugs are real the storyline is old and filled with trauma
You have learned some of this already
Do not fear this mechanism, it is there for defense
It is broken for the moment but can be fixed with focus daily work
Learn to let those thoughts go and the mechanism will reset