This is the Origin of Complex PTSD, C-PTSD



What is an ACE?

An Adverse Childhood Experience (ACE) is defined as experiencing any of the following categories of abuse, neglect, or loss prior to age 18:

  • Physical abuse by a parent
  • Emotional abuse by a parent
  • Sexual abuse by anyone
  • Growing up with an alcohol and/or drug abuser in the household
  • Experiencing the incarceration of a household member
  • Living with a family member experiencing mental illness
  • Domestic violence
  • Loss of a parent
  • Emotional neglect
  • Physical neglect

The ACE Study

Beginning in 1994, the “adverse childhood experiences” (ACE) Study, a partnership between the Centers for Disease Control (CDC) and Kaiser Permanente assessed the relationship between adult health risk behaviors and childhood abuse and household dysfunction.

  • The study began with a sample of 9,508 individuals representing a 70.5% response rate.
  • Respondents were given a score of one for each ACE category that they experienced.

Findings showed that people who experienced four or more adverse childhood events had:

  • increased risk for smoking, alcoholism and drug abuse
  • increased risk for depression and suicide attempts
  • poor self-rated health
  • 50 or more sexual partners
  • greater likelihood of sexually transmitted disease
  • challenges with physical inactivity, and severe obesity

A follow-up sample combined with baseline data for a total sample of 17,337. Additional findings show that ACE Score is associated with:

  • likelihood of attempted suicide across the lifespan
  • increased risk for broken bones
  • heart disease
  • lung disease
  • liver disease
  • multiple types of cancer



My two cents:  I am an ACE kid.  My nervous system activates easier than normal people.  I have had chronic fatigue and Guillain  Beret, both auto immune diseases.


In fact Guillian Beret left me paralyzed for three months. 


Depression, anxiety and PTSD have been companions in my life.  Low self-image it seems has always been around.

I have fought and healed and carved out periods of happiness and peace but it is a battlefield, a war zone.


None of this is my fault  or your fault, we were vulnerable kids.  I accept this life and refuse to judge it or behave as a victim.


Suffering has been part of my life,  not the ruler of it.  We need to build our focus, maintain our courage and willpower for the fight.  Feeling sorry for myself is never accepted.


We need to take responsibility for our life and the way we live it.  I need not win but I need to resist and try to live fully.



2 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Sebastián on December 9, 2018 at 12:51 am

    The most important part of this post for me is where you say, “None of this is my fault or your fault, we were vulnerable kids.” Maybe I need to hear it more often.



  2. Guilt is a worthless emotion, already done, a past trauma

    We heal by letting those judgments alone

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