Updated: feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled?

“The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.”
That describes some of my own feelings while integrating, healing, observing fear, crescendo and fade.
Actually visiting places in real time that were triggers, is uncomfortable, scary, anxious and formidable, but healing happens by facing, going through our delusions not around them.
We do not run, escape to what we think is safety or trauma grows and thrives inside us.
Fear grows when we try desperately to escape, flee to safety, race our minds, till we are full of cortisol.
There is no middle ground with C-PTSD, it grows or we integrate and heal. Doing nothing to heal, trauma becomes stronger with time and influence.
C-PTSD is a catch-22 for us, we take action or suffer, no middle ground or neutrality exists.
We are either working, taking action to heal, healed or we continue to suffer more.
We are the only one who can heal us, from the inside.

8 responses to this post.

  1. I think almost the entire human race is run by fear. We have the fear of the unknown, of death, of the impermanence of life, and the media doesn’t help to relieve fear. However, fear is harder on those of us who had a difficult childhood. I have seen how understanding we can heal from within, taking action and learning to detach from thoughts has an impact in releasing the illusion of fear.

  2. may I pose a question, is C-PTSD fear real fear?

    If you believe it is, then why does the same fear not excite or move me now?

  3. No, I don’t believe it is real fear. It’s a memory.

  4. So why do we run, escape, anything but take action to heal, if it is just a memory.

    It is not like other memories though?

  5. I believe it’s because the brain cannot tell the difference between a real event and an imagined one so our body reacts to the fear and releases stress chemicals.

  6. Good answer. Memories bring many things into our consciousness, some good, some frightful.

    Certain memories are stored differently because they were so traumatic they are stored in the amygdala, an almond shaped organ of the brain, tasked with defense.

    You are correct that these memories have the switch to release our stress chemicals, well the whole adrenal stress release of cortisol, adrenaline, loss of fine motor skills, tunnel vision, loss of cognitive function all or part, BP, heart rate and respiration spiking, etc.

    But my question again is this real fear?

    It is just our own body mechanism disordered, firing because of past trauma, there is no real fear.

    Then if we become friends or familiar with our defense mechanism, trauma fades.

    Trauma or the thoughts add nothing to the fear mechanism,

    We could go to a doctors office and get the same drugs in a shot, the thoughts or trauma have no power at all except what we give it.

    Does that make sense?

  7. Posted by Laurie Schuler on June 10, 2017 at 4:35 pm

    I think it is real fear. However each person copes with it differently. With some the trauma does fade as time goes by. Others just cannot release it. I think it also depends on the severity of the trauma. Again that is how each individual is able to cope.

  8. The chemicals are real, cortisol and adrenaline, the fight or flight mechanism is real but real danger with ptsd is usually a bluff.

    My trauma was from childhood from someone who is now dead but the fear can still make my ervous system explode

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