PTSD – A Way Out.com A mindful way to heal

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Growing up in a container of violence, criticism and control, I struggled for identity, self worth.
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Trying to blend in, trying to be, or even act normal, was a constant desire.
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Overachieving was my vehicle for inflating my self worth.
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Accomplishments, titles, awards were pursued and collected in place of self worth and happiness.
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I always tried to fit in, tried to avoid being the target of ridicule as a child, then as an adult.
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I felt damaged to my core, unworthy without the possibility of redemption and happiness.
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My father’s abuse actually suppressed my true personality, extrovert became introvert for almost 60 years.
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I finally healed and a pure extrovert emerged.
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In a store the other day, I purchased the LOUDEST, BRIGHTEST, UGLIEST looking T-shirt I could find. Fluorescent actually.
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I realized that I need not project anything to others or the world to be happy or fulfilled.
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All healing and happiness originates inside, the ego’s domain is the external.
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Sit today, focus, let go, discover the real you, he/she is perfect, like the rest of us.
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