Be Ok with yourself for today, only!.. An Experiment!!

Olga Boznanska

What would happen if we refused to doubt ourself today?  Could a person who experienced severe childhood trauma live through this?  Sorry, some sarcasm injected here.

What is the risk involved with letting go?  I know that we die the same day whether we try to control or let go.
Letting go started with little things for me.  Food was easy to not judge.  My ego (cognitive) wanted to compare everything I ate.  Aroma, ambiance, flavor, service etc. etc.  Letting go freed me to savor the food and the moment.
Healing starts with these small actions and continues to build.  Our daily practice brings an accumulative pressure on trauma.  Trauma can not play defense, so we apply pressure.

6 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by fikadax on July 7, 2012 at 8:45 am

    A wonderful post of personal experience an practice. Yes there are very very very small steps to be taken to shift from control to let go. The way you make trauma and the ego visible are amazing in my world. Mindfulness has helped me to start pnot judging things around me. Before – when I was going on a trip with my dog – I was comparing all the time – good gardening or bad gardening, nice flower or awful. All the time my brain was reacting with judgement. When I try to observe – a garden, a owner liking flowers in that kind of color and so on, and the peace inside me was growing. I need to practice for a time before I could experience the strength inside me not being so much judging and the best of all being less hate to my self. Thanks Marty for being you, for telling me your personal experience and practicing in small steps. Anneli

  2. Excellent, Anneli,

    Letting go brings freedom from our thoughts and fears. letting go takes control away from the ego.

    We finally realize that letting go of the ego flawed because it was made to survive our childhood. Now we can reprogram the ego, one that serves us.

    Excellent practice for you Anneli.

    You have so far and reclaimed your freedom to be calm and present without all,that ego comparisons.

  3. Posted by Tony on July 7, 2012 at 2:58 pm

    Reminds me of the scene in “What About Bob” where the shrink tells the patient to “take a vacation from his problems.” What if you just pretend to be healthy? May sound sarcastic, still, it might be a way to practice the things that can be practiced and help discern the things in life that are truly external and beyond influence. I do something similar when I’m driving- I’ll find myself getting impatient, then driving angrily. I’ll focus on a few breaths and pretend I have no timeline and suddenly I am a patient driver. Pretending or practicing? Suppose it’s a semantic distinction, little else.

  4. Posted by fikadax on July 7, 2012 at 3:27 pm

    As long as I can remember I have asked for “vacation” from my thoughts, the voice in the left part of my brain, trying to solve different kinds of problems all days and nights, year in and year out 🙂 🙂 :). The “brainmachine” seemed to have no end – I have been successfull in solving problems, finding new ways of doing things – but I have never felt proud of my self! Now with less thoughts and more of being present I can feel proud of my self, not compare to anything else, only proud of my self 🙂 🙂 🙂

  5. Healing is a wonderful thing to watch unfold.

    You do the work and living your mindfulness Anneli, it shows.

    You have learned to train the mind to slow down and let thoughts fade.

    The mind works by far the best when no thought is present.

    Does that not seem funny.

  6. I cant really be bohterd to go out n walk, Im already fat, exactly, I’m 13 though :3, I dont like singing!, then my parents will find out.I’ll keep to my blade, thanks. Also I’d be gratefull if you checked out my channnel, I havent got any vids yet, but I’m planning to get some up.

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